I did confess in one of the forums that I am a horrible daughter. I don't call my mother as often as I should. I don't know what the problem is with me but I don't think of myself very highly right about now. Yes, it is heartbreaking totit.

...Maybe the Mom needs to get up and look for something to do, cause i'm sure by now she knows she raised a couple of *******s that never call...

WTF!!?? Does that mean you think I am an *******??!!!

...haha No No NO i said no such thing...

Well Bro you kinda implied it...lol

He did!! No questions about it. :D

Well, GarrrXella.. if we gotta have it into the open.. I'm not a good daughter myself. My mom works as an operator at tele, still she only calls me like every three days. Still.. her call IRRITATES the **** out of me. I don't want to be rude to her, but i can't be civil either. I want to scream at her to get a life, and although i never get to say that, you can hear it in my tone which is why she usually hangs the phone sounding heart-broken. I feel guilty, ofcourse. I know I'd regret it someday. VERY MUCH. But i can't understand why my mother's calls annoy me. And when she calls to ask me if i were coming over, i usually scream at her "MOM, i'm waiting for a call!" or "MOM, i don't have a battery on my mobile!". I never say yes or no, let alone "Yeah, i miss you guys". It seems the only time i'm nice to my mom is when i want something from her. (Money, which she always manages to find me inspite of earning twice less my salary, or to call my husband and leave him a message- she got free international calls). I know there is some resentment and anger underneath my anger. But i don't know what it is. My mother went through HELL for us. She had to live with the most difficult person in the world who beat her and us to dust, etc, so we could have a better life than she could give us. Unless i'm holding that against her, in some twisted way, i can't imagine why her call, and voice, annoys me. Because my younger siblings don't really care what i feel but I'm ready to forgive them ANYTHING in the world. Love em to death! But with my mom, it's different. I don't get as irritated at my dad as i do with my mom. I sometimes wonder if i'm revolted by her blind love for me, which my siblings don't have for me, coz i kindda grew up hating myself (and she's become the enemy that loves my enemy - myself!). Or if i have held the fact that i felt silently judged by her all my teens against her. Or because we humans secretly despise, take for granted and ill-treat those who need us in their lives, inspite of however mean or bad to them we are. Or something ... . I don't know ! I know i feel like a terrible daughter every time a mother is mentioned (which is like every other minute with Ethiopians). So.. anywho.. that's why i found the painting heart breaking. And that's why i feel Knight had a point about undeserving kids. Atleast in this daughter's case!

ACK!!! I can't do this totit! Really. Much of what you have said sounds a little too close to home and frankly, I am not ready to face it. I am just scared ****less that by the time I am ready to face my demons it will be too late. I guess I am looking for a push to get me to 'talk' to my mamma.

Awww snap! I didnt wanna hate on the mom-appreciation party so I didnt say anything before, but I'm soo with totit on this one! Whenever I call my mom she acts all angry and suspicious like I want something from her (which is usually true b/c she's generally so unpleasant), but when she calls me its all good. Soo I just drop her a tadias text every once and again, b/c I know she hasnt figured out how to send harassing texts on her blackberry yet. *waits for God to strike me down*

Lol, Garrxella. I understand . I don't think i'd be found dead admitting all this if it weren't online either.